Archive for August 3rd, 2009

I’m new.

I’m critical. I’m judgmental. I’m not a nice person naturally.

There.  I said it.  That’s my big secret.  I generally hide it well.  I think…

When I think back to 10 years ago–before I discovered the forgiveness and grace of Jesus–I did not hide it nearly as well.  I yelled at my kids.  I was angry a lot.  I was vocally critical of others.  I worried all the time.  I was mean and belittling to my husband.  I was sad.  You are glad you didn’t know me then.  and if you did, I’m sorry.  I’m really, really sorry.

Fortunately, God is continually making me new.   He didn’t just do it once, in October 1999, although He certainly did do it then.  It’s a miracle that my family survived intact until I allowed God to step in and begin His business of healing, reshaping, and restoration.

Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come! 2 Cor 5:17

So, I’m a new person.  Daily, God is restoring me to the woman he wants me to be.   I’m learning to accept. and to be accepted.  He is showing me grace. and showing grace through me.  and most importantly—>LOVE…God is showing me what love is, who love is, and how to love others like I never understood before.  that love is a choice, not a feeling.  it’s a decision, not a reaction.

Oh, yeah, and I’m 40 today.  If I’m this new today, I can’t wait until tomorrow…and the next day…and the next!