Archive for July, 2013

Random Confessions

I haven’t tried something new every month like I said I was…at least not intentionally.  I forgot.  I got busy.

I have been watching a lot of reruns of Castle…mostly because I’m fascinated by Kate Beckett’s hair. I love her hair. and Nathan Fillion.  But mostly her hair.

I have not been playing/practicing the guitar…I have used every excuse in the book. But mostly I’m just lazy.

I procrastinate.  Let me show you my wall after termites and leaky pipes had their way for months/years.  Don’t procrastinate.  It’s ugly.

Sometimes I wear multiple headbands wrapped around my wrist because I like that layered look of different textures and layers of bracelets but don’t want to spend the money on lots of bracelets….and I think I’m fooling people into thinking I’m actually wearing bracelets.

I have trouble handling stress.  It physically affects me.  Drags me down.

I have trouble giving up control.  Who doesn’t, right?! But sitting in the passenger seat while my teenager learns to drive, darn near gives me an anxiety attack every time.   On a positive note, it forces me to rely on Jesus. or I would explode… x_x

My job title has the word pastor in it now, yet I feel totally inadequate to live up to the expectation that comes with that word.  Totally. Inadequate.

Ya Can’t Please Everyone

Isn’t that the truth?  Sometimes I feel like I can’t please anyone.  Galatians 1:10 says  Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.  I really don’t think I’m a people pleaser, but daily I feel like I let someone down and it bothers me, so maybe I am.  But, really, I don’t think I live for the approval of people…but I do like it.  Who doesn’t?

When I read Acts 14, Paul and Barnabas were speaking in the synagogue and a “great number of Jews and Greeks believed”.  But at the same time, another group of people was stirring up trouble.  Of course, they didn’t stop sharing the truth because some people didn’t like it, they just went on preaching boldly and then went somewhere else.

Maybe because they were confident in what they were doing it made it easier for them to go on preaching.  and maybe I’m not always confident…for example, I know I don’t always say the right things, or if I do say the right thing, I don’t say it the right way or at the right time.   Yeah, I must have voices in my life telling me what I’ve done wrong….well, hey, at least they are honest and share how they feel–it’s better than not, I suppose.

and I wish I could blog more like my cousin and just say what I’m trying to say instead of dancing around topics and speaking in generalities.  But I’m always afraid my “feelings” will offend someone, so I don’t say just what I mean.   There I go again, people pleasing.