Motion Sensor God

This is probably not completely legitimate theology, but I had a thought one night while running in my neighborhood after dark. As I approached a house that was dark, the light over the garage snapped on. I ran past that now well lit house, easily seeing the ground in front of me. As soon as I got a few steps past, the light snapped off.

It made me think of the promise in James 4:8, “If you come near to God, He will come near to you”. If you are walking close to God, your path will be illuminated. If, on the other hand, you try to do life on your own and don’t include him in your day to day, it will be harder to see where you are going.

I know that God pursues us and uses a multitude of ways to speak to you throughout the darkness, so this isn’t absolute truth–it’s just a observation of how God sometimes works.

Word of the Year 2014

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Every year, my pastor challenges our church to pick a focus for development for the year.   A word.   Last year, 2013, my word was GRACE.  I practiced it, meditated on it, prayed about it, even tattooed it on my wrist.  I feel like I understand so much better what it looks like to default to grace–to believe the best in others first.

So, this year, 2014, my word is PRAY.  I have, for the past year or so, stewed over the dissatisfaction I feel regarding the lack of depth in my prayer life.  I know that there is POWER in prayer and I know that I am not tapping into it to the extent I could be.

With 2 teenagers, a new promotion at work, and moving soon into an empty nest season with my husband of almost 25 years, I am weak on my own.  Impotent.  Insufficient.  I NEED the power of God.  I pray in silent whispers. I pray in battle cries.

Deeper

The theme for this week is DEEPER. Like the roots of a really strong tree.  They are DEEP.

When Jesus called Simon Peter to a deeper faith he told him, “Now go out where it is deeper and let your nets down” Luke 5:4.

When I posted about prayer last year, I might have given the wrong impression that I don’t already pray. I do pray, I just want MORE. I want DEEP, intimate conversations with God. Not one sided diatribes, or “popcorn” prayers, but conversations.

Deeper NEED

Deeper intimacy with Christ

Deeper FAITH

Deeper conversations

Let your roots grow down into him, and let your lives be built on him. Then your faith will grow strong in the truth you were taught, and you will overflow with thankfulness. Col 2:7

 

Mind Clutter

Fractured thinking.  Mind clutter.  Mindless multi-tasking.  Ping-pong brain. Addiction to input. These are words and phrases that are popping out while I read 7: An Experimental Mutiny against Excess.

Stuff clutter is not really a problem for me.  I am a pitcher. The opposite of a hoarder.  I don’t get attached to things…emotionally or otherwise.   

My problem is mind clutter.   The constant barrage of noise and distraction that keeps me from completing a thought or a sentence.   That’s why I don’t post to this blog much because I never take the time to think things through to completion…much less process them externally in the form of a writing.  Concentration is virtually non-existent. 

With the introduction of the mobile phone and now the smart phone, I suddenly feel like I have to be always available.  Always responding to email, text, facebook messages, etc.  Am I really that important?!  The answer is no…nobody is.  Nobody is so important that their time shouldn’t be their own. (expect maybe the POTUS)

In fact, I’m fairly certain that before I finish typing this post, that something will pull me in a completely different direction.   It might be a text from one of my kids needing a ride somewhere, an email notification, the little (2) notification on the facebook tab of my browser, or any number of different distractions in my world.  

So, how do we re-learn to focus in this media-saturated world we live in??  Awareness is part of it, but certainly only a small part. I have been aware of the problem for quite a while now but nothing changes just because we recognize the need for change.   

I could schedule “thinking time”.  Right, who am I kidding?  I also have scheduled gym time, and then not gone to the gym.  I did take 30 minutes last night–turned off the tv and put in headphones and picked up a notebook.  It was great.  30 minutes turned in to an hour.  And then I turned on the tv and all was lost until I was too tired to do anything but fall asleep.  I’ll try for 30 minutes again today.  Maybe quiet will beget the need for more quiet. 

 

Who The Heck Am I?!

I am a relatively self-aware person. In the organization I work for, development and growth are highly valued and frequently discussed. Growth and development BEGIN with self awareness. I know who I am.

So, imagine my surprise when I went to the store and bought a Christmas wreath for our front door in early November!! Me! The one who does not get excited about Christmas things. And then I heard someone playing Christmas music a couple days after that (still early November mind you) and did NOT HATE IT!!! What the heck is happening to me?! If you know me, you would be shocked. Delighted, perhaps, but most definitely surprised by this new attitude towards all things Christmas.

Actually, I became most concerned when, just today, I was looking closely at a picture of a cat and thought “I really want that cat.” A CAT?! Since when have I ever wanted a cat?!?! NEVER. Never. Never. So strange, because it was so sincere inside me.

Leading me to ask the question, “Who am I?!”

My dreams are often very vivid, a little odd, and can be very revealing about what is going on in my head…or not. There was the dream about designing a new Mace with regenerative cells so the burning effect wouldn’t wear off. Or the one where I had to coach a basketball team. Or the one where I was walking around carrying a big wad of cash. My dreams are not dull.

Twice this month I’ve dreamt that I discovered hidden, forgotten rooms in a house we lived in. What does that mean?! Am I the house? Are there hidden and undiscovered things in me? I am taking on lots of new responsibilities at work and learning new things so that is probably where that comes from. ??

But the cat? And Christmas? I don’t know what that is all about. Somebody tell me what’s happening to me!

Trees, Leaves, Mountains, Beaches

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Nature.  or NāCHa, when I feel like an British accent.  I love nature.  Love being in it.  Love watching it.  Love. It.  Some people  love to travel to places like New York City and Las Vegas.  Me?  I would love to see the Redwoods in California.  or Aurora Borealis.  I have little desire to see what man made, I mean it’s alright, but doesn’t compare to the things that God made. Mountains?  Amazing.  Beaches? GORGEOUS.  Trees, sunsets, sunrises, all bodies of water, the moon…my favorites.   Even the air outside is better than indoor air.  Don’t get me wrong, I love the shelter of my home and wouldn’t ever want to lose that, but I don’t spend near enough time outside.

 

A Series of Uncertainties

“I have no idea what I’m supposed to do.  I only know what I can do.” Capt James T Kirk, Star Trek Into Darkness

My cousin, Christy, references lots of movies quotes in her blog posts and on facebook, so I thought I’d try it.   She’s clever.  Somehow, I don’t think I’m doing it quite right.  However, I press on.

The first time I heard Chris Pine, I mean Cptn Jim Kirk, say this line, it hit home with me.  I feel that way a lot.